Sunday, March 27, 2011

Almost Fainted~

hmmm.... i have really no mood to update anything .... and so the wedding preps .... so many things that need my attentions and eventually lead to a headache... i have no word to describe the exact feeling that i'm into now ... sometimes i feel like to give up the wedding ... the thing is in my case i am a bride with nobody could help me to prepare the wedding and i am a person with not much money in bank so to hire a wedding planner is not an option...unless i'm begging daddy to support from A-Z....hehe ... i think i'm big enough to plan and execute my big day but never thought it will be this tired ....

Yes the point is everything seem uncontrolled now ... haha and i am almost fainted at pasar malam tadi .... all of sudden i can't hear the adek penjual bihun sup tu cakap apa and sayup2 je suara dia ... i blink my eyes and shake my head left and right and wishing for not to collapse there ....malu haku nak jatuh kat situ...i am too heavy for a man to carry i guess so it is better not to faint there ...boleh tak haku pikir yang itu dulu ...haha then lucky i still can stand still ... cepat2 bayar and head to buy the air tebu coz my hypothesis at that time is maybe i kekurangan gula .... haha....lucky it is not severe but it freak me out .... coz i never ever experience that few blank second moment in my life....

haishhh i guess i'm struggling too much for the wedding and the diet as well, my mR.Z is far from me thus i have to handle this on my own ... ke sana sini survey itu ini all alone ... mungkin sy penat but i didn't realize it coz wedding prep is so much fun ok....! thus my heart denied that i need a rest and keep going on ... haishhh....

Work also not helping me lately, depression is my closest fren everyday ... asek naik darah ja hari2 ... and i always feel guilty to the person that i've been angry at the end of the days .... and thinking tomorrow is a MONDAY .... lagi la terasa sakit kepala and teringat2 schedule yang penuh padat likat tuh ....


Wish me luck and good luck everyday .... i need it badly ... T__T


3 comments:

~ NANA ~ said...

gud luck!!!

diet pon still kna jaga kesihatan okey :)

org cakap bride to be ni insyaAllah rezki akan murah...juz wait n see je la...hehe

chill okey :)

brid3ofkayangan said...

thanks nana dear....harap2 btul la murah rezeki and kesihatan baik2 selalu...huhu

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